I felt so ordinary today

I wish I know what am I suppose to do. I am not feeling attached anymore …what I don’t know is if its temporary or permanent.

If I take a step closer I will definitely take three steps back the next moment,coz I would hate myself for taking that one step.

I wish to be a person who is free. How much i want to be in the moments but my compulsions and fear bind me. I wish to not be scared atall.

Face changed, name changed but all is still the same. I know it would take time but i will be fine again.

I wish I was good with words. Some can write and get lighter. I never could get healed. What is suppose to leave, never leaves me easily.

The things felt most, cannot be expressed in words